there’s no way to say good bye

the weather’s warmin’ the sun shinin’ in past years we planted seeds in our garden

and my children played in the mud

jack cried when he fell from the tree in the front yard and tumbled into the driveway

but he wasn’t hurt

katie laughed when she ran through the sprinkler with all her clothes on


there’s no way to say good bye


when jack was born his grandfather carried him in a bundle of blankets into the backyard and talked to him

it was september and cold

i was a new mother and nervous but jack was fine and the size of a toddler

and his grandfather was telling him secrets


there’s no way to leave


we spent a summer in canada jumping into the freezing water of a deep rocky lake

screaming as we hit the water and laughing when we found the surface

we danced to the music of a victrola and its scratchy records of another life and slept under mosquito nets


there’s no way to let go


katie slept with me last night crying

her grandfather is dying and i can’t fix it

i would if i could

it’s a better world with him in it

so i tell her to remember and i tell her to love him while he’s here


there’s no way to say good bye



**Note: My children’s grandfather (their dad’s father) is dying of bile duct cancer after battling colon cancer. It is fast and has no cure. They found out last Thursday. He has weeks to leave.**


10 Responses to “there’s no way to say good bye”

  1. celticsea Says:

    And there’s no easy way to take the pain away from all of you. I am sorry.


  2. Heather Blakey Says:

    Your news touches a wound and I feel your pain. My thoughts are with you and your children. And in a moment our lives change forever!

  3. lori Says:

    I’m so sorry to hear this, Sen.

  4. porchsitter Says:

    Oh, Sen, so sorry. This will be a great loss to all of you. I’ll say a prayer for all of you.


  5. scribblenpaint Says:

    How sad for you all. My thoughts are with you. Hugs, Sue

  6. Sally Says:

    It is a beautiful yet painful poem that comes at a most difficult time for you and your family. Oh, Sen. If only I could take some of this burden from you. My father passed before my daughter was born and yet she swears she knew him. She says he comes to visit.

    I hope your memories ease this ache in your heart and the heart of your children. I am thinking of you and holding you close to my heart.

    Love & Hugs, Sally

  7. imogen88 Says:

    So sorry to hear this news, and it must be so hard to bear. Peace to you and your family. Such beautiful remembrances, bittersweet.

  8. david Says:

    it is such a beautiful poem. there is no way to say goodbye. there is no way to explain the passages of life. who the hell configured reality like this. i need to speak to someone in management to complain…

  9. traveller2006 Says:

    such sad news, Sen. All I can wish you and your family and him is that his passage is peaceful, dignified and as comfortable as possible.

  10. fairyrainbow Says:

    Sen, no words. No way to say. Just my thoughts, with you all, always.

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